This is a personal post. Bite me.
Recently broken up with my boyfriend. Very emotional because it came out of nowhere. Well, now that we are separated, he wants nothing to do with me.
I’m finally realizing how hard it is to say goodbye to the guy love, to know that he isn’t going to love me back no matter what I do. I hated loving him when he doesn’t love me back. It took awhile for me to let go of the love I have for him, but now that it’s gone, I realize its for the better. Obviously he was put in my life to teach me, and to experience an incredible first love.
What I’m struggling with now, is that I have to say goodbye to him as my best friend. He wants total and complete space from me. No talking, texting, hanging out, nothing. He doesn’t want anything to do with me. I have a problem with this, because we have been best friends for 3 straight years. Talking every single day, about everything. Its incredibly hard to change the way I’ve been living. I feel like there isn’t anyone I can talk to anymore, I mean, how do you say goodbye to someone you care about that much. But, someone pointed out to me, that once I let go of the friendship, I’ll be able to fully move on and feel like myself again.
Now its just making it to that step. Actually letting him go entirely.
Its just really hard to release that much. :/
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